I can completely relate to what you are saying about the world not seeing the efforts that you have worked hard to put together, and that life can and will get in the way and change your course of thought. Last year I encountered an experience that has opened my eyes to see if I get out of the way of myself and help others, there is more room for others to help me.
A family doctor told my husband this week that we are not on a journey, we are the journey; each right step we take in this journey writes the next step, which in turn can leave a legacy of kindness, compassion, and tolerance for others, but we have to be open to allow these experiences to unfold in our hearts.
I inadvertently began writing this journey with a blog, website, and on accident started a line of jewelry expressing what I feel during the day, the site is "Less Than Perfect Angel.com" and there is an attached blog that is with it, if you have a chance take a look to see if this helps you- I know it helps me during the cloudy days.
I did see that you are coinciding with a national publication- and wish to change that. Take the time, search your heart, and another forum will appear. Maybe this is the time to get back on the roller coaster and have fun expressing what we are all looking for- serenity in our hears.
I will be watching!